Friday, July 13, 2012

Here I am in a time of big transition wanting to honor this movement by doing some writing about it.  I am preparing to leave this place of internal workings - this womb, cave, place within the earth.  There have been 8 years of processing, moving inward, doing deep inner work which has meant a lot of soul searching, doubting, wondering, discovering, and searching as I have wrestled with myself.  Art has been an incredible gift in this process.  I had a dream which spoke to me, "Follow the Art, Rite of Passage"....and I have done that.  I have engaged in art most days...doing my best to let go of the outcome/product and just enjoy the process.  This has been amazing to me.  During my times of doing art I have met many parts of myself that have come forth to speak ...It has often been a committee meeting where some members blatantly speak their opinions and some sit quietly afraid to speak.  I am grateful that I have found a committee member that is good at listening and facilitating; giving opportunity for all to share in an orderly manner and all being respected most of the time.
This has been an integrating experience...an experience of honoring those different committee members and providing a safe place for those who have been afraid to speak.